Monday, May 25, 2009

They say that dreams are born in the heart, and only there can they die...

I've been getting a lot of slack for switching my path from medicine to psychology. People are telling me that I'm giving up on my dreams. That I am so intelligent it would be a waste not to be a doctor. That I'll never be happy unless I do what I set out to do. This is driving me insane. I have spent months agonizing over whether I was making the right decision in choosing clinical psychology over medschool.

I AM.

My dream has always been to be a HEALER. I (and many people around me) had assumed that being a healer meant being a doctor. But I think healing the mind is as fitting to my dream as healing the body. Since both paths lead to my dream, I am free to choose either route.

I am (and have always been) far more interested in mental than physical health. There are more opportunities to combine research and working with patients in clinical pscyhology. And I am no longer willing to make the necessary familial and emotional sacrifices I would find myself making to become and then to be a doctor. I don't do well without sleep (on-call would be hell for me). Although I will make less money as a psychologist (and have much less prestige), I will be far happier and more fulfilled with this path in more areas of my life.

I'm going to be a (child) clinical psychologist. Not a doctor. Deal with it.

2 comments:

  1. You will be a fantastic psychologist. I'm proud of you for following your heart towards the direction that will make you happiest. Sending hugs your way!

    Liz

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  2. (Yay!!!) Can you hear me in the background cheering you on? You will be a great healer, my friend. You are brilliant, and you will do a world of good in this broken world of ours.

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